आखिर क्यूँ.....

आखिर क्यूँ रह रही हो दिल में 

जबकि इसकी कोई हकीकत ही नहीं ..

बस रह रह कर सताती रहती हो 

जिसकी इस मर्ज़ क पास कोई दावा नहीं 

ना चाहते हुए भी हर पल याद आ जाती हो

कभी जागते हुए कभी बेहोशी में आती हो 

जो पूरी न हो सके कभी भी 

तुम वोही सपना बनकर रुला जाती हो 

आखिर फिर क्यूँ आती हो ख्यालों में मेरे 

जब तुमने जिंदगी से हमको जुदा कर दिया है 

इस अधूरी सफ़र में छोड़ गए मुझको और  

मेरे प्यार क जज्बातों को जला कर राख कर दिया है 

वादा किया था खुद से के दूर हो जाऊं

तेरी हर वो ख्याल इस दिल से 

पर आज तुमने फिर वो याद दिला दिया 

जिसको बुलाया था मैंने इतनी मुस्किल से 

अब तो बस एक ही बिनती है सनम तुझसे 

बस रुक्सत कर दे मुझे अपनी मोहब्बत से 

इतनी तो इनायत बनती है मेरी इस सफ़र पर 

तेरे प्यार के अलावा कुछ और भी चाहत है जिंदगी से 

The day I got... still lost ......on the NEW YEAR

          Life is all about losses and gains... and today was my turn to get such a day. I was traveling to my old home to new one. I was going from home to delhi by Rajdhani Express. I said it as great as it was the only one available... I was going with my small niece and was supposed to drop her at home and stay there for a day and then leave for Berali. I was as usual chitchatting with her to get the time going as it's a long journeys. But then I noticed a girl just next to my seat. She seemed quite familiar like someone I knew. But I ignored it as I wasn't alone. I kept myself engaged with my niece. But when I just went to wash my face I again saw her and saw a group of them. While washing my face I was just trying to recollect her. Ah! I got it, she was from my school. Perhaps I didn't have a proper talk with her before which took some time to recognize. 

           But then while coming back to my seat I tried to have a peep and see who all are there. Then i saw her. Even though I passed swiftly thinking not to get noticed by that girls but that face was like flash from dark. She, my first crush sitting just near the window seat. I just couldn't believe it was her as i had never thought i would ever get to see her. She was also traveling with them.
          Just remembered the day i saw her. It was a sight to behold as the heart was struck and i reached the flash point. So Love happens of first sight just as if it was one of popular Sharukh khan movie. But I never had conveyed it to her. So the feelings was hidden somewhere deep inside in the heart and i kept that secret all the while even though i left school and all went on their own ways.. After a while i saw her coming out of that chamber to buy some snacks. She was wearing a white salwar kurta which suits her the most and  i too like her in that. I had seen her the first time in this same look with the same simplicity for the first time too. Then she saw me and we exchanged a smile. Uff! That smile was killer type that just drove me way back to the sweet old days.. 

          I hadn't spoken to her often but still I remember the sight of her while I was in 11th grade, I came across her in a accident. Then I said sorry to her and she just smiled and said it's OK and went past. That frame of time that had got me the most lovely and curvy smile of her is still looked so vivid till today that it sat deep in the heart. I can remember it as f it happened has happened just now. I even now still wanna go back into time and see her smile again and again. But time had its own cruelty so everything went past and after our schooling she went along her way and I on my way. 

          But today everything just lightened up just like flashback and I just loving the moment. I thought to talk to her about her well being next time she comes out. After a while she came out looking for something. I rushed out but calmly and greeted her with a simple Hi and wished her a happy new year and asked how you are. She just said fine and asked about me. I said everything is going on its way. But as I was going to ask something more to talk she turned back towards her seat as her friends called her and she sat there. The heart just dropped out again. I was hoping for another chance but it didn't happen and our stations came up. I came out with my sister who happened to see her brother being the juggler on the hands of time. While coming out I wished all of them a happy new year and went along. I was just praying to god to give another moment to talk but it didn't happen as I couldn't trace her after train halted at station.  After  that i out my luggage and went towards exit.

          After coming out of the station I just took a glance around to see her just to at least say her a goodbye but that too didn't happen. Nevertheless life's not all about her only. there still something time has left for me. But whatever maybe the goals of life she still will have a silent place at one corner of my heart and that will never go……

टिप टिप कर गिरती बूँदें....

टिप टिप कर गिरती बूँदें

कुछ एह्सश जगा गइ दिल में..

और हलकी सी मुस्कराहट ला दी 

लेगइ कुछ पुराने यादों से पल में.....

यारों के संग वो हस्ता हुआ कल

जब भीगते थे मिलकर बरसात में....

वोह बरसात  में धुलते  चेहरे

और पानी भरे होते जूतों में..

चाप चाप कर पानी में कूदना

फिर गिले ही घर लौट जाना था....

पर अगले  दिन फिर वोही  कहानी थी

और घर में  फिर जाकर दांट खाना था..

एक छत्री के ना जाने कितने रहते 

फिर भी साथ में ही रहते थे....

कभी तो छाते संग होते फिर भी

यारों क साथ भीगते रहते थे...

आज तो पड़ भी जाये बूँदें तो भी

वोह  सम्मा ना ला पायेगी ..

क्या आज की ये छोटी छोटी बूँदे

भूल जाने पर फिर याद आएगी ..

aapki yaad me .............

Bas doori itni thi unse k keh na sake,
Ehsaas dil ki bayan na kar sake,
Fir bhi umar bhar ye dard rahegi k,
Us doori ko hum tay na kar sake.

Saksh woh aaj kyun yaad aa raha hai.
Purani yaadon ko sath la raha hai.
Un adoore sapno ko jise kho aaye the,
Na jane dil unhe fir kyun basa raha hai.

Abhi bhi samjh ja dil mere,
Koi mol nahi yaadon me tere
Magar e yaaron ye bhi ajeeb hai
Yaad karta aankho me pani bhare.

Agar khuda de aisi zindgi dubara
koi doori na rahegi o yaara
aur na rahunga aise yaad karte
bas sath rahe wo saksh pyara...

Friendship with sunshine.....

Friendship is precious!
not only in the shade.
In the sunshine of life,
And the sorrows made.

Your friendship, a rare fragrant
Along with essence of sunshine
It's worth can't be measured
except by heart's shrine

Sweetness tamed by her,
that resides in humble mind.
Her friendship is sharing openly,
And caring with trust as bind,

Pours her heart out,
For gentle hands to take.
Keeps what is worth keeping,
like keeping cherries of cake.

Thanks to be benevolent
and smile to gladden.
May the simple friend of mine,
Blossom in life's garden.....

जब चले गए तुम नज़रों से दु्र.........

जब चले गए तुम नज़रों से दु्र

हमने नज़ारे देखना छोड़ दिया

इन आँखों  की किस्मत तो देखो

जिसे बसाया उसीने हमें छोड़ दिया

थामे हुए है फिर भी थकी निगाहें और

बस यूँ तकती रहती रास्ता तेरा 

ना छोड़ा लेकिन उस राह को 

चाहे ढल जाये शाम या आये सवेरा

अब ना बची थी दिन ना बची रात

हर लम्हा इंतज़ार जो बन गया था

बस दर है कहीं तुम्हारे मिलने से पहले 

कम्बक्त धड़कन ने साथ ना छोड़ दिया

अब लौट भी जा ए हमसफ़र मेरे 

देख तेरे बिना सब सुना-सुना है यहाँ 

हम तो अब भी खड़े है अकेले वहां 

तुम हमें छोड़ आये थे जहाँ 

ऐसी थी झाँसी की रानी......

ऐसी थी झाँसी की रानी
जिसने धुल चटा दिया अंग्रेजों को ।
बिठुर की थी वीरांगना ऐसी,
नाज़ है जिसपे आज सारे ज़माने को ।

कहते है उनकी मोख की तेज थी ऐसी,
जिसके सामने हर कोई झुक जाती ।
उनमे हिम्मत के सामने तो
हर मुस्किल भी आसन बन जाती ।

प्रतिमा थी वो क्रांति की
जिन्होंने भड़काई थी ऐसे आग
हर कोई निकल पड़ा था साथ में
उनके लेके हिंदुस्तान की आज़ादी का राग ।

सचाई की ताकत थी उनके बाजु में
और ज्वाला भरे थे सीने में ।
कमी नहीं थी साहस की
तांत्या की उस तेजस्वी सिस्या में ।

धरती माँ से करती थी प्रेम इतना
समर्पित कर गयी जीवन अपना ।
हर इंसान की आँखों में बसा गयी
एक स्वतंत्र भारत का सपना ।

जब तक थी सांसो में जान
जितने न दिया फिरंगियों को ।
ऐसी थी झाँसी की वो महारानी गर्व है
जिसपे हर भारतवासी को ।

Todays enigma faced by me.....

   Why in today's world it has become so cynical for a person to trust another one or help them in their times of hardships and troubles? Why, there's no one to help out a person confronted with a problem? Why... just because of fear of getting cheated. But there might be some one who would be real and truely needed help. Was this what we all knew about the moralities that we studied in childhood.

             Such is this enigma where  i often find myself getting caught between my-self and my emotions. Often shaterred by the mere acceptence of the new values of life and going along the tide. Perhaps today people have learnt what our mothers used to say, "never talk to strangers". Today i had been through such a situation where i had dealt within my values and a past experience. 

       It was around my college days when i was new to college and the place. Stating the incident which occurred when i was going to my friends house to bring some books. On the way i met some people who were asking for help . there was a man and his wife with their son and daughter. the child was too small probably 2-3 years old while daughter was old enough to go to school. They were asking whether i knew Hindi or not. I replied, "Yes". Then the man said that his luggage has been stolen and he needed some money to go to his native place which is Jamshedpur. He looked very terrible and sorrow. 

  

     I felt bad at their situation and thought of helping them. But at the back of my mind i also thought of being cheated. Then i saw that small boy in the arms of the lady who was crying slowly as if he was hungry and the girl who was wearing a school dress. Still hesitant to help them but couldn't back out. I just thought for a while because he had asked for 100 rupees for the ticket and i was having just hundred for buying some xerox materials of study. But i went with my heart and gave them a hundred rupee note and said that i had only this much and if u needed some more then you have to ask others. He seemed happy and thanked me for helping him as he said he had asked many people before me but none had listened him. Hearing this i felt relieved and happy too as i felt i was able to help a needy. Then he asked whether i had any extra some 20-30 rupees to feed the child. i searched for it in my pants and found a 20 rupee note which also i gave him. Then he went is way to the station and i came back.

         But all of a sudden i thought whether he is going to get ticket or else going some where. I returned back towards the station just to cross check in case he uses my money for the right purpose only. But to my wonder i was unable to trace him. Nowhere i could see him. Then i looked for him near the ticket counter but he was not there also. Now i seemed suspicious about him and checked out any trains to jamshedpur just to find out if he gone by train. But to my utter amusement ther was no train till morning 4 a.m. I shaked my head in disbelief and cursing myself for getting moved away and getting fooled by such silly stories.

                    I just came back home and straight away got laid on bed and didn't talk about it and thought of got a lesson from life. But today i again cam across with similar sort of people who asked for some money to go to their house as he said that his purse has been pick-pocketed. But i didnt even gave an ear and moved away recollecting that incident of past. But still now also i got a feeling that whether he might be true but still backed out myself from that place and moved on.But at night before penning down this strangest incident i again encountered me thinking i should hav helped. But strangely i silenced my heart. Possiblely i have also have started to hate in fear rather than hug and love.....

Ye thehra hua waqt...

ठहर  जाये  ये  वक़्त  येही  और
आपको  ही  बस  मैं  देखता  रहूँ
ख़ामोशी  भरी  नज़रों  में  आपकी
हाले-दिल  अपनी  चुपके से केह  जाऊं 

इस  रुके  हुए  वक़्त  में  जब
आप  बैठी  रहे  यूँ  साथ  मेरे
और  हम  बस  निहारा  करे  आपको
के  आप  खो  जाओ  आँखों  में  हमारे

आपने जब यूँ  कंधे  पर  सर  रखा
मनचली  हवाएं  तबसे  बहता  गया
और  जब  लिया  हाथों  में  हाथ  आपने
तो  धड़कन  मनो  वहीँ  रुक  सा  गया

प्यार  भर  गया  था  हर  नज़ारे  में
जी  चाहा  समेट  लूँ  हर  लम्हों  को
इसिलीए  वक़्त से गुज़ारिश  कर  बैठा
थोड़े और पल  दे दे संग  उसके बिताने  को

पर  वो  भी  निकला  प्यार  का  देवाना
केह  गया, जी  ले ये  लम्न्हे  प्यार  के
बस  वादा  कर  दे  इतना  मुझे
दिल  न  तोडना  कभी  अपने  यार  के

कहानी झाँसी की रानी की

जन्मी बिठुर में एक चिंगारी थी,
जिसका इंतज़ार था कबसे भारत को |
लिखी जिसने नारी की ऐसी परिभासा
इतिहास करता हर पल सलाम उनको |

रखे थे कदम ब्रह्मन के घर में
पर रूह लायी थी एक सेनानी की |
जब खेले दोस्त उसके गुड्डे-गुड़ियों से,
तब बात करती वो भाले और तलवारों की |

गुरु थे जिसके तांत्या टोपे
और भाई, वीर नाना साहब |
हिम्मत थी बेसुमार उसमे और
सहस भरे थे उसमे बेहिसाब |

कुछ सोची थी तक्द्देर ने भी,
जो बांध दिया राजा गंगाधर से |
और दिल में बसे उसके जज्बे को
यूँ जोड़ दिया जूनून के समंदर से |

गावं से निकल कर हाथी पे सवार हुई
महारानी बनी जब झाँसी की |
सिखा गयी सबको एकता की बातें
और ज्वाला जला गए सबमे क्रांति की |

नको चने दबा दिया गोरों को
तिलमिला उठे उसके तेज़ से |
गोरे तो बस घायल हो गए
जब सामना हुआ रानी लक्ष्मी बाई से |

ऐसे खूब लड़ी वो मर्दानी
वो तो झाँसी वाली रानी थी |
देश पे न्योछावर करदी जिसने
उसकी सची देशप्रेमी की कहानी थी |