Me... Going for Proposal

Arrange Marriage, typical word for many people. So was mine. It happened to be day earlier i heard parents discussing about a girl. I rose from my bed and went up to them and asked,"what are u talking about ?"
My mother smiled and said, "Planning to meet your father-in-law." I just was coming back then all of a sudden it stuck me. "What! what are you saying ? All of a sudden from where he got born. what is this?" My dad, who was coolly smiling at the other chair was observing my reactions. God knows what why he was smiling by his unusual style.I straight away said "Nooo!!!...i dont want to meet the girl now. I am not ready for this right now". But as generations goes by tradition, i had to get ready to meet this proposal. Any ways my brother has already started teasing songs :(. No matter what situation would be he would recite some dialogues or song related to that. :) When the discussion was over and i came to my bed to walk out of all those staring faces. I laid on the bed and wondered what to do now. I twas evening by now and i went to make some tea.
               After that i gave a cup to dad and had mine with mom. Then seeing all are free mind now i asked,"what is this?" She calmly said not to worry as this is not last one, you can go and just meet her and dont worry about any thing. I said.. but she convinced me. Finally i took some heart out of it and said to myself, "chalo dekh k aa jate hain aise bhi dekhne me kya jata hai :) " Night's over. Morning came up and as usual morning work is done and i was sitting and watching TV and sipping my tea. My mom shouted from inside the kitchen to have a haircut and do the shaving also. I said "No, i would do that evening." She shouted again saying evening there is a meeting for you so i have to go now. I finished up tea and biscuits and put on my old clothes and went to saloon. Finished my haircut and shaving and came home and took bath. Somehow time passed by and came the moment. I was getting ready to meet the girl..

              I dressed my a nice lavender shirt and put on my leans and went to meet her. But what shall i ask. All those filmy dialogues came popping in my mind. I felt strange. I reached and so did she. our parents greeted each other and told us to have a talk. I looked at her at she started smiling but i was nervous. What to ask what to ask .. were just the question going round and round. I started the talk saying i am not having any topics to ask to you but if i say anything don't mind it. Again she smiled. I felt good by now for any one at-least smiled ant by stupidity( :P). I asked where do you stay and what work are you in. She started of brilliantly and was in no way shy. After few talks it was like.. Holy Gracious! I started talking with her freely now. I asked her regarding the family her places of work and wagera wagera... She was going on speaking and i was just like a toad listener. But she looked good. I felt a bit of blush coming now :).

              Talks apart she asked my date of birth, my office and life in Bangalore. Three questions for a girl who can speak so profoundly. Somehow the talk was over and we greeted each other and left for the day.
putting all talks behind that happened today i had a (unofficial) Proposal Day. Meeting her in a so called eyes looking what shall i talk to her was rather ......... :) (and the story continues)

The day I got... still lost ......on the NEW YEAR

          Life is all about losses and gains... and today was my turn to get such a day. I was traveling to my old home to new one. I was going from home to delhi by Rajdhani Express. I said it as great as it was the only one available... I was going with my small niece and was supposed to drop her at home and stay there for a day and then leave for Berali. I was as usual chitchatting with her to get the time going as it's a long journeys. But then I noticed a girl just next to my seat. She seemed quite familiar like someone I knew. But I ignored it as I wasn't alone. I kept myself engaged with my niece. But when I just went to wash my face I again saw her and saw a group of them. While washing my face I was just trying to recollect her. Ah! I got it, she was from my school. Perhaps I didn't have a proper talk with her before which took some time to recognize. 

           But then while coming back to my seat I tried to have a peep and see who all are there. Then i saw her. Even though I passed swiftly thinking not to get noticed by that girls but that face was like flash from dark. She, my first crush sitting just near the window seat. I just couldn't believe it was her as i had never thought i would ever get to see her. She was also traveling with them.
          Just remembered the day i saw her. It was a sight to behold as the heart was struck and i reached the flash point. So Love happens of first sight just as if it was one of popular Sharukh khan movie. But I never had conveyed it to her. So the feelings was hidden somewhere deep inside in the heart and i kept that secret all the while even though i left school and all went on their own ways.. After a while i saw her coming out of that chamber to buy some snacks. She was wearing a white salwar kurta which suits her the most and  i too like her in that. I had seen her the first time in this same look with the same simplicity for the first time too. Then she saw me and we exchanged a smile. Uff! That smile was killer type that just drove me way back to the sweet old days.. 

          I hadn't spoken to her often but still I remember the sight of her while I was in 11th grade, I came across her in a accident. Then I said sorry to her and she just smiled and said it's OK and went past. That frame of time that had got me the most lovely and curvy smile of her is still looked so vivid till today that it sat deep in the heart. I can remember it as f it happened has happened just now. I even now still wanna go back into time and see her smile again and again. But time had its own cruelty so everything went past and after our schooling she went along her way and I on my way. 

          But today everything just lightened up just like flashback and I just loving the moment. I thought to talk to her about her well being next time she comes out. After a while she came out looking for something. I rushed out but calmly and greeted her with a simple Hi and wished her a happy new year and asked how you are. She just said fine and asked about me. I said everything is going on its way. But as I was going to ask something more to talk she turned back towards her seat as her friends called her and she sat there. The heart just dropped out again. I was hoping for another chance but it didn't happen and our stations came up. I came out with my sister who happened to see her brother being the juggler on the hands of time. While coming out I wished all of them a happy new year and went along. I was just praying to god to give another moment to talk but it didn't happen as I couldn't trace her after train halted at station.  After  that i out my luggage and went towards exit.

          After coming out of the station I just took a glance around to see her just to at least say her a goodbye but that too didn't happen. Nevertheless life's not all about her only. there still something time has left for me. But whatever maybe the goals of life she still will have a silent place at one corner of my heart and that will never go……