I promise you

I don't promise you the moon

I don't promise you the stars

But if you promise to remember me

I promise to be always there

I promise i 'll be there in good times and bad

when we are happy and when we are sad

I promise I will be there to hold your hand

When sorrows come and troubles land

I promise I 'll miss you when you are gone away

I'll patiently wait and for you I'll pray

I promise when life is not at it's best

I'll stay on your side and let God do the rest

I can't promise i won't fall or stumble sometimes

we may not have money, only nickles and dimes

I can't promise I won't get mad and cry too

But i Promise I will always, always love you

कातिलाना ......

सजे हुए थे वो मुस्कुरा हम रहे थे
झुकी थी निगाहें होश हम खो दिए थे
ऐसी थी वो राज कुमारी जिसे
हम आज हमसफ़र बना रहे थे

रौशनी भी हर तरफ से चमचमा गयी 
सबकी आखें भी उन्हें तकती रह गयी
वो भी काम मदहोश करता  पर उन्होने
हलकी सी कटलीलाना मुस्कान दे गयी


होश संभाले हम खड़े हुए जैसे तैसे
चुपके से हमने पूछा उनसे
आज ही इतना केहर डाल दोगी तो
 जीवन भर हम आपको संभालेंगे कैसे

Unwanted person or Unknown friend ?

      There was a wedding of my one of my good friend in Hyderabad. So had to attend it at any cost. Gosh shall be meeting her after a long long time .

         I had to go there even after parents were not willing for this reasoning out the hot weather and unknown city. Still i wanted to go as she was my childhood friend. I booked my ticket and nearly missed my bus but thanks to my friend who drove me there just in time. Then the bus played a Kannada movie which bored me further but gave a good sleep.
        Came the morning and i reached Hyderabad. This was my 2nd visit to this place. Felt good! Got down from the bus and tried to call her But no response.. Again dialed again no response.. Again dialed... and i was still standing on the Bus-stand. I didn't inform her that i shall come. So thought how could she arrange for my stay. Then again thought she is the groom so she wouldn't have time to pick up the phone. Then booked a hotel and freshened up and reached her house.

      I straight way reached to her place . by the way the route was not that straight ! Entered the venue and saw her sister. Just greeted a "Hi !" She didn't recognize at the very instant as i met them almost 15 years. I said "I am Sinu." She recollected and smiled. She was all smiles and asked about my parents. We had a small chat how is everything going on in the life, my job and marriage and waghera wagera... Then she took me near her father. He to my surprise remembered st the instant and called me by my name, It just brought a smile at my face. I bent over and touched his feet and he gave me few blessings. After this i met her other sisters. All have got married and now have their child around them. I just smiled at the pace of time and wondered how much have been passed between these years but still all looked the same except few grey hairs around uncle. Then i met my favorite, Unma didi. She didn't see me but just didnt expect me there on the very special day. And yes she too remembered. Why she, none of them would have thought so. I was a surprise big or small nothing matters.
     Then i went to see my old friend, she was all smiles and thanked for attending the marriage. She was all dressed up in a beautiful traditional bridal wear. She looked gorgeous as ever. Just wished and congratulated her for the marriage. Then some old taunting started and both shared a laugh together. Then she was asked to get ready as the function was getting delayed.
           All the functions were going fine but suddenly i didn't felt nice.I was feeling like i have been unwanted guest. I was alone standing around and sitting in a chair. I had come to enjoy but was feeling like no one even bothered to have a talk or sit at a good place or some thing like this. I felt bad. I was getting lonelier standing at a corner. Every one was their relative were there and all gathered and started talking. I was feeling a bit bad. I didn't came to just eat at her wedding, i waned to be involved in the function.
        Some how the function got over and i thought of returning to my  hotel but there was no arrangement for that too. Those who came in their transport they all went. I just by now wondering how to return home. I kinda felt bad at the function feeling like isolated desert that has been kept aside for the extras. I went in again handed the gift which i had bought to her at the stage and wished her good times ahead. Without a second thought i came out and booked a taxi and reached my hotel.
             Sleeping that night i just turn on the radio and went back to those memories when the so called unwanted feels comes and the feeling of being an unknown friend or a unwanted guest or person was getting cropped in the heart. Thought she always shall be friend but for her and her surrounding the perception might have got changed
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Ek talash thi......

Ek khwab ki kabse talash thi

Kuch kehne ki kuch sunne ki aas thi

Ek talash thi

Raah par to hum yun hi chalte rahe

Qki aksar raah par unhiki talash thi

Band aanknon se unhe sochna

Fir muskurakar jaag jaana

Sapne sajakar aakhon me

Hai dillagi bas unka intzaar karna..


Anjaan si surat liye khade the kinare
Din hua khatam chadh gaye sitare
Magar  unse na hui mulakaat abhi tak
Jinke k liye humne sajaye the bahare

Ek sath ki ab dil ko talash thi
Sang jiske safar zindgi ki chalni thi
Khayalon me jisko sajana chahte hain
Unki har ghadi intezaar thi...

Me... Going for Proposal

Arrange Marriage, typical word for many people. So was mine. It happened to be day earlier i heard parents discussing about a girl. I rose from my bed and went up to them and asked,"what are u talking about ?"
My mother smiled and said, "Planning to meet your father-in-law." I just was coming back then all of a sudden it stuck me. "What! what are you saying ? All of a sudden from where he got born. what is this?" My dad, who was coolly smiling at the other chair was observing my reactions. God knows what why he was smiling by his unusual style.I straight away said "Nooo!!!...i dont want to meet the girl now. I am not ready for this right now". But as generations goes by tradition, i had to get ready to meet this proposal. Any ways my brother has already started teasing songs :(. No matter what situation would be he would recite some dialogues or song related to that. :) When the discussion was over and i came to my bed to walk out of all those staring faces. I laid on the bed and wondered what to do now. I twas evening by now and i went to make some tea.
               After that i gave a cup to dad and had mine with mom. Then seeing all are free mind now i asked,"what is this?" She calmly said not to worry as this is not last one, you can go and just meet her and dont worry about any thing. I said.. but she convinced me. Finally i took some heart out of it and said to myself, "chalo dekh k aa jate hain aise bhi dekhne me kya jata hai :) " Night's over. Morning came up and as usual morning work is done and i was sitting and watching TV and sipping my tea. My mom shouted from inside the kitchen to have a haircut and do the shaving also. I said "No, i would do that evening." She shouted again saying evening there is a meeting for you so i have to go now. I finished up tea and biscuits and put on my old clothes and went to saloon. Finished my haircut and shaving and came home and took bath. Somehow time passed by and came the moment. I was getting ready to meet the girl..

              I dressed my a nice lavender shirt and put on my leans and went to meet her. But what shall i ask. All those filmy dialogues came popping in my mind. I felt strange. I reached and so did she. our parents greeted each other and told us to have a talk. I looked at her at she started smiling but i was nervous. What to ask what to ask .. were just the question going round and round. I started the talk saying i am not having any topics to ask to you but if i say anything don't mind it. Again she smiled. I felt good by now for any one at-least smiled ant by stupidity( :P). I asked where do you stay and what work are you in. She started of brilliantly and was in no way shy. After few talks it was like.. Holy Gracious! I started talking with her freely now. I asked her regarding the family her places of work and wagera wagera... She was going on speaking and i was just like a toad listener. But she looked good. I felt a bit of blush coming now :).

              Talks apart she asked my date of birth, my office and life in Bangalore. Three questions for a girl who can speak so profoundly. Somehow the talk was over and we greeted each other and left for the day.
putting all talks behind that happened today i had a (unofficial) Proposal Day. Meeting her in a so called eyes looking what shall i talk to her was rather ......... :) (and the story continues)